so, I feel it's best to leave the fourm. Everyone will be happier and I wont ruin anyone else's life. I promise i'm gone for good [ I asked Jen 2 deleate my account] I'm sorry 2 everyone I hurt, my intentions never were to hurt anyone, and I ended up hurting everyone. but, everyone will be happier this way. I've wasted enough of everyone's time, just wanted 2 tell everyone I'm sorry and I'd like 2 thank everyone who put up with me for as long as you have. I hope everyone has a good, happy life.